Three years ago today God blessed us with Ryan and Evan. We expected to meet our bundles of joy on September 16th, so their arrival three months too soon on a Monday morning in June was quite a shock. Theirs was not a peaceful birth. It wasn't a joyful day. There weren't any jubilant phone calls to family and friends announcing the birth of our boys. To be frank it was the absolute scariest day of my life and no matter how old I get I will never forget what that day felt like. It was a mix of fear, anxiety, disbelief, and the sweetest, purest love I've ever known.
Their early arrival is something I still struggle with. If I choose to I can go right back to those early days and relive those moments. I can sit myself down and have a good old cry if I wanted to. But I'm choosing not to. On this day, the third year of my sweet boys' lives, I choose to live in this moment. I choose to celebrate the lives of my two miracle boys and focus on the blessings that God has bestowed upon us through Ryan and Evan. I choose to reclaim this day as a day of happiness and celebration.
This day means so very much to me and I tend to go a little crazy this time every June. We've been planning their celebration for what feels like ages now, and I've been burning the midnight oil for the past few days to prepare for Ryan and Evan's special day. I'm reclaiming this day and finally letting go of the circumstances surrounding their early birth. Our friends and family have joined us and come from near and far just to celebrate Ryan and Evan. My sister is here, my Daddy and two of my aunts are coming today, and the boys' Godfather will join us too. All of these people love our Ryan and Evan so much that they are reclaiming this day with us. There are those who may not be able to be here to join us this year, but we know they'll be thinking of Ryan and Evan. They'll be smiling and celebrating right along with us, No more sadness, no more regrets. No more second guessing God's plan for us. It's going to be a good, good day.
Happy birthday Ryan and Evan. You are loved more than you can ever know.
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Cousin Betty is so sad she will not be at the birthday party this year to celebrate Ryan and Evan. I love them so much. I will be thinking of my boys the entire weekend. I was there for the 1 and 2 yr old parties and moving forward, I do not plan to miss any of their parties. Happy Birthday Ryan and Evan and enjoy your party.
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